okay okay. chalet ended. in a bloody mess for me. because the chalet was in a freak mess by saturday night. i couldnt be bothered to clean anymore.

soooo. it was fun as usual. first night i was there with the early birds jiawei kelvin chuancheng and kenny. yar yar, all MALES, but frankly, i was in more danger of getting fat. cos i just kept eating and eating and eating.

settled everything miscellenous by friday night. SO I MUGGED while the 4 guys talked crap right behind me, yakking away and away. I MUGGED POA. to failure. cuz i got everything wrong. oh well. then hsien han and peiru came over in the dead of the night. and we ordered mac.

see? eat again.

i made it my personal mission to gat fat in the 3 days. *nods*

saturday we went CANOEING! whoot. errr. so we had 5 double kayaks, 10 of us went out to the sea. junxian and kenny, hsienhan and peiru, vivian and kwangying, xueling and ahbao, sihui and yiwen. the water was, surprisingly, quite clean leh.

anyway, we just canoed round and round and round, steering here and there and left and right, trying to capsize each other, banging into each other, chasing and playing for 1 hour. wasnt very fun, but it was fabulous sun, nice wind, good workout. HAHA.

anyway, while we were out at the sea, something just err, dawned on me. as i was paddling and paddling, i realised sometimes i get too focused on the process that i forget to look at the end. cuz you know, when i paddle, i stare at my paddle. oh and kwangying's(she's in front) too. i look at the blade, left right left right left right. circle up, cut into the water, glide. YARR. so after some time, i'm like "eh why are my eyes following the paddles....". but then i do it again and again. -_-

but then you know, canoeing is fun. i like watching the blades cut into the water. i like the sun beating down on my whole body. i like the ache in my arms after paddling for a long time, but still going on and on trying to overcome the pain and get the momentum. i like to fall into the water and fly around in my PFD. ahh. we used sit-on-top kayaks. so it was slower. but much much cleaner. =X



then was the BBQ. where the whole wide world came. so it was nice and fun. ahbao and xueling's ai xin bee hoon. healthy and economic. :D anyway, it was hard work. preparing the syrup, making the ice, starting the fire, barbequeing the food. sometimes i wonder why the hell people like to have BBQs. why go back to cavemen era when you have a perfectly good working gas stove in your kitchen?

then i did the unthinkable. I LEFT! yay. i threw away the work to kelvin to do. yeeehaw.

hey i was tired and stressed.

and quite beaten.

why cant people be satisfied with what they have?

ahemmmm. anyway. today me and wanting studied the whole afternooon. i covered a lot of pacc, and have got most things covered. but but. of course, theres never an end to studying. ROARS. at night, wanting treated me and zinc to pizza hut. :)

i think we need to throw away everything for a day and a night, and just hang out together. to not be tainted by stress. or by different lifestyles. or by different mindsets. or by different perspectives. because beneathe all that, we're all the same. maybe by doing that, then we'll see again that we're a clique. we're friends, the true kind, not the fake ones that will fade away. we're friends not because we have to be, but because we want to be. i treasure them so much, but you know, something is just wrong. like we're all not so sure anymore. maybe we need reassurances. maybe we need more time. maybe we need to open up more. something.

i wish i was fairy godmother. so that i can right all the wrongs of the lives of the people i care for. its just not fair, sometimes.